Facebook changes - seriously, I feel old when facebook changes things around. So many people are saying "stop complaining about facebook changing, big deal" but I realize those are the YOUNG people saying those things, not the people my age. Getting old stinks. You realize how much you like things YOUR way, or just the simple old way, and even if you think you're pretty spontaneous and flexible, you can see where you're not in more areas than before! Uggh. I don't usually feel old by the way, just when it comes to things like this. Most other times I feel young....almost too young. Like when I look around and see that I'm in charge of keeping three little kiddos safe and clothed and warm and fed....then I feel like a little kid myself and wonder "I'm so young, how am I supposed to be wiser than them! I kinda want to go watch a cartoon!"
This has been the busiest week - in the past week I've been to two baby showers, a bunco game, a rodeo dinner, kids to a church musical audition, watched my husband compete in a gym competition, attended a 2 yr old's birthday party, had a baking morning with a friend (we baked THESE and THESE from my friend Shari's blog, but the funny thing I'm realizing now is that neither is baked!), I ran more than ten miles total, ran out of papertowels and kitchen sponges and ziploc sandwich bags, filled up my car with only $35 worth of gas because it was late at night and I was creeped out at the gas station, so then almost ran out of gas the next day....and this is when I realize what my grandma means when she talks about "burning the candle at both ends."
But something that doesn't make me feel old, or busy, is taking my little run in the morning. I LOVE to get up and be running while the sun's making its way out into the sky. There is nothing like it. I feel like the most natural, nature-loving, granola of a person when I am out that early in the morning. And pushing myself to do something I thought I'd hate, but realizing how much I like it, it's very therapeutic. I thought running would be a great time to pray, and it is, in theory - you are out there alone, with the world and nature, why not talk to God? Well, the Lord gets the first few minutes of my time when I can still breathe and think. But soon, I realize I can't think of ANYTHING and I actually feel rather blank. That's probably good, because I frequently have so many things swimming around in my head, I'm mixed up quite a bit and it worries me. The blank feeling is okay. Today I ran on a track away from my house, and when I got back in the car to go home, I just sat there and realized as I got my breath back into a normal state, my brain followed, and my to-do list started popping up in my head.
Pictures are uploaded. Ah, feels good. Now I can get to bed and rest up for a BUSY weekend of CAMPING! Oh, wait...I still have to pack.
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I loved this post, Jess. I wish I lived closer so we could run together. :-) You described the reason I run perfectly. I love reading all your motherhood adventures! You are so fun! What gym competition was Bobby doing?
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